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Apr. 19th, 2009 | 09:36 pm
listening to:: Grizzly Bear - Colorado | Powered by Last.fm

ugh. this weekend was such a bomb. luckily i don't work until 2 tomorrow so i can stay up later and continue with watching movies and buffy by myself. i really need to get a life.

sex with jeremy just keeps getting better and better. i'm glad my hemorrhaging held off until saturday night, but now i have megacramps that make me want to kill myself.

next weekend is going to be great. i hope. i'm going to iu for little 5 so i plan to be very drunk and make out with lots of hot guys. i hope.

i rediscovered this song today that i listened to non-stop in california. i don't know why. it has nothing to do with california but i think it was on a comp cd that i bought down there. anyways it is obviously my song of the day.

FUCK. just kidding the don't even have it. LAME. download lydia - smile, you won anyways. OKAY?

makeshift song of the day - http://blip.fm/~4m24e enjoy this like its the REAL song of the day.

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Apr. 18th, 2009 | 10:33 pm
listening to:: Running, please wait...

its not fair.
its not fair.

its not fair.

oh yeah. song of the day - http://blip.fm/~4k8ax

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Apr. 16th, 2009 | 08:53 pm

song of the day - http://blip.fm/~4g8py

took zoey to the park. it was really refreshing and the weather was brilliant.
i'm glad tomorrow is friday. hoping to go up to purdue this weekend.
maybe IU next weekend? probably. its little 5.

oh and parks & recreation just finished. second episode and i'm still not sure what to think about it. its not really as funny as the office, but it is set in indiana and amy poehler's character told a funny story involving the creation of "pawnee", in and how a white man came from terre haute. ohh, we'll see how it goes next week...

aziz ansari is fucking hilarious though. gotta love indians.

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Apr. 15th, 2009 | 09:48 pm

so this should bring the LOLs. i basically had the sex talk with my 14 yr old brother last night. the weird part is, it wasn't awkward at all. i think we should have serious talks more often. oh, but today i saw a preview for tomorrow's oprah and its about these two 14 yr kids that think they're ready to have sex. hahaha. my face turned red i bet.

oh and today i was driving down allisonville and this car tried to pass two cars (i think) on a double yellow line with three cars coming at it head on. it was a CLOSE CALL. no joke. i had my phone ready to call 911. stupid idiot drivers.

work was blah. hopefully i'm babysitting this weekend. CASSSH FLOW. ya know?

song of the day - http://blip.fm/~4ea53, in honor of mewithoutyou's new album out in stores may 19. (luckily i acquired a leak of it today...shhhh.)

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Apr. 14th, 2009 | 07:05 pm
listening to:: Bon Iver - Skinny Love | Powered by Last.fm

i need a vacation so bad. i don't know how much more of this i can take! i've been so tired and moody lately, and its wearing me down.

work drags on and on, and then when i get home, time drags on and on until i can finally fall asleep. an endless cycle, day after day after day after...

i really have got to stop complaining so much.

i really have nothing new so say except that i'm doing a song of the day now. its very exciting let me tell you.

anyways here's yesterday's song: http://blip.fm/~4a5iw

and today i'm going to go with iron & wine - resurrection fern http://blip.fm/~4bypm


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Apr. 12th, 2009 | 12:52 pm
listening to:: M. Ward - Vincent O'Brien | Powered by Last.fm

well well well, look who finally decided to show up.

barley last night, third night in a row. oh god. my golden crane i made from a cigarette wrapper is still on top of the window. i throw up a peace sign at him every time i walk in.

my bed still smells like you btw.

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Apr. 11th, 2009 | 03:29 pm
listening to:: Deerhoof - Fresh Born | Powered by Last.fm


whats up.

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Apr. 10th, 2009 | 07:35 pm

i don't feel like i updated a day ago. feels more like months ago. yesterday was my birthday and it was one of the best birthdays i think i've ever had.

my co-workers at the ymca did a great job with making me feel really appreciated and i loved madi and brayden's pictures they drew for me. katie and travis took me out to eat and then we drank some drinks at their apt.

i went to barley after that. nothing really exciting happened, but micheal gave all my drinks to me for free. so kind.

its very strange that today my phone isn't ringing off the hook and my inbox isn't filling up with text messages. its like give a child alot of attention and they expect it all the time. you know?

anyways, i'm now addicted to twitter. very very obsessed.
if you would like to follow me. https://twitter.com/hilizjohnson

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Apr. 8th, 2009 | 08:59 pm

so i got online to check my bank account and i have $30. WTF happened??

UGH. worst birthday ever if i have no money!

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Apr. 4th, 2009 | 12:20 pm
listening to:: Running, please wait...

last night was really really FUN! and amaaaazing.

i seriously wanted it to last forever, but i'm still not comfortably with some parts of the social situation. i know its just like it was before, but it feels different. i don't know how to explain it without exposing my ~deepest darkest secrets~...ya know?

anyways, making pizza right now. i'm staaaarving. UGH.

oh and listen to this wildly amusing story. so i finally go to bed around 430 last night and i could tell zoey was wiped because she fell right asleep. anyways, around 6 a.m. i here her yak and feel my leg soaking wet. i flipped the fuck out. no joke. jumped up so fast flailing my arms and trying to get zoey off the bed and outside. well before she made it to the stairs she did it 4 more times. so i take her outside and theres dog vomit all over my bed and i just stand there and start crying. hahah i think it would be funny if i would have seen myself now.

so while i was taking everything off the bed, i gave up and went and slept in jakes bed. so i have a lovely mess to clean up this morning.

pizza's done.

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Mar. 31st, 2009 | 02:14 pm

last night was very good.
and very bad.
and very very fun.
and very bad.

just makes me want more all the time.
PINCHE feelings!

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Mar. 29th, 2009 | 11:44 am


i was done! i was over EVERYTHING! and then... man knowing my luck, i should have predicted that he would be there. i felt weird as soon as we walked in. i haven't been to that pf changs for probably 2 years, right around the time everything happened. and of course we had to sit at the bar while we waited for our table, and of course derek had to be bartending at this pf changs, at this exact time.

i'm done with bullshit coincidences. if this doesn't mean something, then don't let it happen. stop messing with my mind.

last night sucked too. i mean katie and travis' new apartment is REALLY nice and alot bigger than their last one, but i had the worst headache ever. when i got home around 11, i literally passed out. but then i woke up at 5 a.m. with my head still hurting, WHICH NEVER HAPPENS. so i took some ibuprofen and woke up about 2 hours ago with a stuffy nose and watery eyes. fucking weather. i feel like crap this morning.

man, i really wanted to get out of the house today too.

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Mar. 26th, 2009 | 09:46 pm

jesus. swimming wears you the fuck out.

i can't believe michael actually is quitting on the office. lol the funniest part was how he crawled back through the office. hahaah. oh man.

dwight wasn't in the show much tonight and it made me sad.

oh how i love rainn wilson. too bad he's married.

speaking of, tonight tosha was trying to hook me up with this guy at the YMCA. he's one of the guys that walks around the building and makes sure everythings okay. i mean other than that i don't really know his job title. but we were in the pool with the kids and she's like i think he's single, i don't know how old he is, but i think he's single. hahaha so funny.

anyways i'm off like a prom dress.

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Mar. 25th, 2009 | 06:46 pm

this week has been the longest week ever and its only wednesday.

i need friday to be here asap. tomorrow should be easy though and then i have water aerobics after work and then probably going with tosha and her kids to swim some more. and then the office is on! i hope its a new one. i'm dying to know if michael actually is quitting or not. probably not.

i get paid friday and then hopefully i'm going to bloomington saturday for a bar crawl with erin and her roommates but my mom wants me to go to p.f. changs with her and gma and sam. we'll see what happens. OH and katie and travis move into their new apartment saturday. so there's that as well.

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Mar. 22nd, 2009 | 09:55 pm

i had a very interesting conversation with jeremy last night. and to think i was avoiding him all night because i was nervous about what might be said.

i think we're friends now? we'll see.

just bought the pianist, which i'm watching now and y tu mama tabien.

movies i bought last week: the edukators, run lola run, and saved!.

the edukators was much much better than i thought it would be. i've watched it at least 5 times since i bought it last sunday. and its a 2 hr movie. awesome.

i don't know why i've been so obsessed with movies as of late, but i can't wait to watch new ones all the time.

in other news, i'm in love with daniel bruhl.

mmmmm i love german men.

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Mar. 18th, 2009 | 10:21 pm

man i was super tired today. i didn't get hardly any sleep last night and was dragging at work today.

speaking of... i basically had to use the heimlich maneuver on a 10 month old today. i was terrified. i hope when i have children they never ever choke on anything, because that wasn't even my child and i thought i was going to shit my pants.

tomorrow work. and then i'm doing water aerobics with tosha! fun fun. i hope i can wear myself out enough so i can get a good night's sleep.

oh man. i need the weekend. i can't believe i agreed to work 8-12 on saturday morning. what was i thinking?!?!?!?!!?!!!??!!?!!

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Mar. 12th, 2009 | 08:42 pm

i don't care how lame it sounds i freaking love the show kath & kim.

i think its hilarious!

in other news, i'm still single...for now. any suggestions? i'm thinking rainn wilson for starters and then for more of a hookup adam brody.

oh woe is me.

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