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Jun. 17th, 2009 | 07:08 pm

oh, and by the way...i've moved . http://hilizjohnson.blogspot.com/

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Jun. 17th, 2009 | 06:46 pm

i am SO glad i took friday off seeing as i have a million things to do before saturday night rolls around (aka the bachlorette party).

i have been going to bed much earlier lately with no good results to report. so sad. last night i seriously just thought about staying up all night just so i wouldn't be mad that i would have to wake up at 8.

things to do:
get car fixed (got a recall on a part of my engine)
get hairs cut
get eyebrows done
get presents for the party

...i feel like there's more. see that's why i shouldn't make lists, i always forget something.

twilight phase is over, now i'm back on buffy. the 4th season is so good.
watched a movie called ken park last night. so strange.
started to watch everything is illuminated, but got frustrated because i downloaded it and it had NO subtitles. so i'm going to have to buy it i think. booo.

paid friday. YES.

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Jun. 13th, 2009 | 02:43 pm

i love this.

the description (from youtube): Cut from the La Blogotheque podcast. Spontaneous a cappella version of "For Emma" in a Paris hallway before the house show. From the album "For Emma, Forever Ago".

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Jun. 10th, 2009 | 09:21 pm
listening to:: Grizzly Bear - Fix It | Powered by Last.fm

money situation has stabalized.

today is jeremy and i's one month (again).

i've been feeling icky all week, but finally better today.

going to wind down with some grizzly bear and sims 3.

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May. 30th, 2009 | 10:30 pm

i'm famous. sorta.


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May. 27th, 2009 | 09:11 pm

i hate the phrase "money can't buy happiness", mainly because i notice a significant drop in my mood when i have very little. or like this week, next to none.

i have $30 in my bank account until next friday. i am on E gas wise...there goes my $30. so essentially i have $0 for 1 1/2 weeks.

i have thought (seriously) about selling drugs, selling plasma and/or organs. black market perhaps? i will not sell any of my books, dvds, or cds. that is/will never be an option. those things are my life, the things that keep me going.

so what do i do? i'm really stuck right now. i just payed my dad back $25 i owed him. i can't ask for more money. i need some cash fast. does anyone have any remotely good ideas? things around the house that i might be able to sell?

i'm really stresssin big time.

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May. 18th, 2009 | 07:37 pm
listening to:: Animal Collective - #1 | Powered by Last.fm

i seriously want to scream so fucking bad right now. i just don't understand how ...i just don't understand. are you dating raj? i mean really. are you? because you can. i don't care.

i hate getting this worked up, but i feel like he doesn't even care. he doesn't show me that he cares. he doesn't ever act like he wants to spend time with me. no, jeremy, if you're reading this its not because you're going to the going away party, so don't think that.

i called him at 5. he was going to shower and then go turn in an application. so i waited around thinking it'd be about at hour. 2 and half hours later he calls me. says he forgot about a going away party. fine. oh by the way, raj says hi. ohhhh you're with raj? awesome. forget about me? no i'm sure he just stopped by, but see i have no idea of knowing because i'm a stupid bitch. i seriously feel like a stupid whore after typing all this out.

i'm just ranting really. ohh but i'm seriously so mad. i'm going to hang out and get drunk tonight. fuck.

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May. 17th, 2009 | 11:46 am
listening to:: Cold War Kids - Pregnant | Powered by Last.fm

everything is okay. kara is home. jeremy and i are good. so many things happening in the next month, including the long anticipated wilson wedding.

i can't wait.

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May. 10th, 2009 | 12:36 pm

uh oh.

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May. 7th, 2009 | 08:02 pm

i'm not really sure what to think of what happened last night. it was really great and j was so sweet and nice, but will anything ever happen? can anything ever happen? i mean, i just don't know if i want to like him in that way. if i could let myself like him in that way.

this week has just been so crazy and strange and very eventful, which is not how things naturally are in my life.

its kind of stressing me out to the point where i'm glad i have a night to myself tonight, even if i want to text a million people to hang out.

i think things are just moving too fast all the time. i don't really know how to slow down at this point. i got to figure something out soon though.

oh and i left my debit card in the ATM last night...did i even go to the ATM last night?

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May. 5th, 2009 | 07:07 pm

i dont know what to do. literally and completely have no idea what to do about anything.

i've been hanging out with this guy that i really like, but there's the ex-girlfriend that he seriously just broke up with a week ago. what the hell is wrong with me? i should have just stayed away and minded my own goddamn business. but i fell for him fast and now...well now, i think i just got run-over.

last night was a disaster, said boy's ex showed up to the skate park and through his shit everywhere. i thought she was going to kill me. then she left and he RAN AFTER HER. seriously. and so i'm super freaking out depressed so i go to barley and drink. well jeremy comes and you can only guess how that ended.

my night ended with me crying (naked, mind you) and getting dressed and running out of his apartment like some freak.

these past two days have been more than i can handle really.

at least i have olive garden for dinner.

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Apr. 30th, 2009 | 12:06 am

oh goodness.
i miss him so much and i just left hanging out with him.
i can't wait to see him again.

writing about him makes it worse...

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Apr. 28th, 2009 | 07:42 pm

i've decided...if i can save up some money i'm gone.

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Apr. 26th, 2009 | 02:59 pm
listening to:: Boards of Canada - One Very Important Thought | Powered by Last.fm

new music sunday :

the album leaf
american football
boards of canada
cap n' jazz
casiotone for the painfully alone
colour revolt
the morning benders
page france
wolf parade
yo la tengo

20 or so albums to pass the time. yaknow. a good way to start the week.

little five was fun, and then i wasn't drunk anymore and SUPER tired so i'll give it a 8/10. finally home and not looking forward the work week to start. at least i got paid so i have options do to things that involve money, like barley, for example.

i got the worst farmer's tan this weekend too. on my arms, and not even just that. its only on the right arm. so weird! i think its because i was sitting sideways in the sun. jesus.

church tonight...i need a real good detox this week, starting spiritually.

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Apr. 23rd, 2009 | 08:29 pm

UGH i have to make this quick since p&r is starting.

nothing new today. didn't go to water aerobics, but started doing the wiifit! its so fun! then zoey and i went to the park and then picked up some subway.


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Apr. 22nd, 2009 | 09:21 pm

I AM SO EXCITED TO BE COACHING FOR 4-5 YEAR OLDS FOR SUMMER SOCCER LEAGUE. just got home from the coaches meeting and i can't wait to start! i wish it started this week...wait no i don't because i will be drunk saturday morning. yes, saturday MORNING.

ohhh. work went by fast. honestly i don't remember a single thing that happened. oh yes i do. hunter was there and annoying the poop out of me. no, really he's my favorite. i love him.
here's a little piece of him for everyone: (oh and by the way i was trying to record him saying "will it bite me?" after he asked "whats this?" and i would tell him an animal name. it was very funny the way he said it. you can kinda hear him in the beginning.)

blah blah. this is the song of the day since its stuck in my head: http://blip.fm/~4sowy

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Apr. 21st, 2009 | 07:24 pm

first off - song of the day oxford comma by vampire weekend. i don't care what anyone says, i love this band! and i love this song. listen to it here : http://blip.fm/~4q10u.

today has kind of been a rollercoaster. i woke up feeling so sick and icky. my sinuses were killing me and i've seemed to developed some kind of cough, but nothing i can't handle right?! erin texted me and told me she didn't think it would be a good idea for me to come to little five, but after texting her for awhile i think its going to be fine. i'm just going saturday and she wants me to leave by 8 a.m. because she said they would be drinking in the morning. lol. i love little five.

i only worked for 4 hours today since my head was so wonky so i don't feel as exhausted as other days, but now that i'm typing this my eyes are getting heavy and starting to water. wow.

buffy's over. time for a new episode.

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